Today as I was driving to work with the lady I work with, Karen, whom I hardly know. I realized that even though we are years apart we are both moms that pretty much have the same struggles in life. It was one thing in particular actually that we were talking about. You see Karen is a convert just like me and well her husband although he came from a LDS family, never was really active. Or as active as others I should say. She started telling me about her 7 kids and how they blame her for certain things that happened in their life. How they didn't read the scriptures every morning or have family home evening every week like the other kids. And she tells me that she tried to do her best. And with her husband not home for about 2 years as he worked in another state and dealing with everyone it was hard and she did what she could. This is actually been something that I have been struggling with myself. I beat my self up every week (sometimes every day). The busy rush of every morning - breakfast, brush teeth, make your bed, get dressed, do hair, lunch boxes in backpacks and then its hurrying them out the door before they miss the bus. And then once they are gone I get bummed because I didn't get to do scriptures with them or have a prayer. I know that most of you are really good at this. I am not! I am really trying to be better at this, I really am.
Then, Karen brought up the point that she didn't grow up like this (remember I said she was a convert) and her husbands family never did it either when he was growing up so its not something that is out of the ordinary for him either. But when its two parents working together that grew up the same way, I think its easier. Now, I'm not saying that is the case for every one of you. Because some of you didn't grow up with it either and you are good at doing all of those important things and its not my excuse....or maybe it is...and I'm not saying that Jared and I don't work to gether at this. It is just something I need to get in the habit of DOING. I really admire all of you that are so good at this.
My point is, I really hope and pray that I am doing a good job. Us moms are always beating ourselves up about what we are not doing and this is mine. I hope that one day my kids aren't going to come to me and tell me that I am the reason that they are a certain way and ask why I didn't read the scriptures with them everyday and have family prayer everyday (does family prayer include saying it before meals? just curious). Like I said, its something that I am working on. It's not like I don't do it at all I'm just not consistent. Overall, I think I am a pretty good mom and that is just one thing I am lacking.
By the way....I did FHE with them on Monday (WHOO HOO for me!) and they said it didn't count because dad wasn't there. Geez kids don't I get credit for trying! We still did it and made these yummy treats. We are going to have FHE again tonight with dad though since he will be home.